My Wish ..

Who am I? I am a simple guy, with a simple mind, and with a simple character finding ways to live in this complicated world. But I’ve lost my cheerful smile. Every time when I look at the mirror and try hard to smile, I just can’t do it. The smile that I have owned since childhood has left me forever. Now I just left a fake smile, no longer my true cheerful smile.

Everyone would say that I am a happy-go-lucky guy, optimist and sociable. Actually personally I am confused about my true personality. No one in this world knows himself/herself well in this world. Am I optimist? Am I sociable? Even I haven’t figured it out. Actually I think that I am that person who is quiet, but the environment makes me to be another person. Every time when I tell my friends that I am quiet, no one believes me. I am not that sociable, ok? Hard to believe I’m competing in socialite voting.
But as Leo, I don’t like the feeling to be left out. I like the feeling when a group of people trying hard to make something success. Only those speaks loud can get attention from the people.

Recently, one of my friends who are sensitive senses out that I act weirdly. Even I also know that my mood is going down the slope. Human have climax and anticlimax. Maybe you can say me moody or even emotional but I just can’t control my own feeling to be moody. But I can’t show it on my face. Lessons learned by me that don’t show your emotions on your face and don’t let anyone see it. I should keep all these inside the deepest of my heart. You will lose a friend or friends if your emotion is out of control. Nowadays, I prefer to sit alone at the corner and look things happen around me. I like to observe people.

My birthday is around the corner. And I hope on my 19th birthday, I can receive Happiness ( Kuai Le ) and Touched ( Gan Dong ) from my friends. Happiness in the sense that you make me see my cheerful smile again, and touched in the sense that you make me feel touching. Only those who know me well will know what I want.